I want to go away for five nights and float through my days, guided only by the light and my appetite. I deserve it, as a busy working mum. I don’t deserve it, because I don’t work enough and because when I’m with my children, my mind wanders off. I do deserve it, because I need time to think. I don’t deserve it, because I chose to have three children and of course they need my attention. Also, how would they feel if I went away for five days? Also, I still want to.